Years

installation, research, serious 

drypoint, acrylic paint and fabrics

2020-2021

I started with the analysis of "inner home": a place where we live in our imagination, in dreams, or where we dream to exist. Our past is located in some other world, after all, we already doubt whether we lived i.e. space and time are imbued with irreality. The poetic image that emerges is not an echo of the past, but rather the opposite: the present gives voice to the past. Being at a great distance from my homeland as well as from my family, I would like to analyze this experience and convey it in future installations, exploring my belonging, my sense of comfort, and the influence of an unfamiliar environment on my "inner home". At the same time, I was wondering about the experience of exploring Sigmund Freud's "Screen Memory" and that feeling of dread while reading. It was a fear that everything I remember might be invented, that my memories are my grotesque or they are not mine at all. It drove me to explore objects or places that had come a long way with me, starting from my childhood. Their reality is a kind of proof for me, an affirmation of my memories and the attachment of myself to spaces from the past. 

 

To this reflection, several works have been done so far. In the artwork "Years" I decided to take as a basis a part of the wall from the apartment where I grew up until I was 6 years old. On this part of the wall, my parents and my grandmother marked my growth, once a year or more. When I started looking at this object, I was interested in how the earliest marks had already almost disappeared from the surface, leaving behind only indentations. This process of disappearance I tried to convey in my work, while at the same time paying attention to my own personal fear of oblivion in another piece, "Years 2". By imprinting myself in the vanishing effect, I wanted to discuss the idea that the "I" emerges through the capacities of our memory, that we "inextricably" remember all our experiences that make the personality form, and make humans different from other living beings.

Years 

drypoint on primed fabrics

2020

Years #2 

drypoint on primed fabrics

2020

Years #3 

drypoint on primed fabrics

2021

 © 2020 by Serafima Bresler.